The Tale of Two Dumplings

May 11, 2010

in blog meet-up,eating disorders,eating out,family,God,Los Angeles,My story,USC

Brace yourselves for a longer (than usual) post…I’m reviewing two restaurants at once, because I don’t want to review LA restaurants while I’m overseas.

First of all, let me give praise where praise is due…PRAISE the LORD! Oh…em…gi…I did not divulge this in the blog yet, but I did express my distress through Twitter: All the way until last afternoon, I was kept on the waiting list for my plane flight from LA to Korea. All other flight was confirmed, but every seat was full for this one most important flight.

It’s the most important flight because I have to be out of LA by May 12th. It’s the day of my final final exam, and also the ultimate move-out day for on-campus housing. Thus I’d have to have everything packed up and gone that very day. Also, it takes 2 days (with a layover in Korea) to get to Singapore, which is all over across the globe. I have to arrive in Singapore by May 17th, because I have a Hong Kong trip already planned and fixed with my best friend.

Needless to say, I was at the edge of my seat. I called my parents every single day asking if any seat was open. And every day, their reply was: No.

No.

No.

No, no, no, no, NOOO!!!

At first, I was rather relaxed. I thought that a seat would open up…I even thought maybe they were holding out on me because they wanted to reserve available seats for paying customers (I was using my dad’s mileage). Then as time pressed closer and closer, I started to panic. Just a little bit. And then, about just 3 days before the deadline for confirmation (in which case all my other flights would be cancelled = NO trip at all), I thought was going to hyperventilate with frustration and anxiety.

And then, about a couple days before, a funny thing happened. I was suddenly rather calm. I thought back to the day God performed a miracle in the airport. I thought back to the day God provided housing for me. And I knew—I had 100% faith— that God will provide again this time, too.

Of course, He did. Not only was I able to score a seat by my dad’s mileage, it was the only single seat available…in the business class section! Wow, God. This is how you work. You not only send me on my trip in peace, you send me in style. I won’t have to squeeze in between two equally cranky passengers and spend 16 hours cramped up and miserable. In the business class, I get to stretch out my legs, and feast on multi-course meals.

God is freaking wonderful. This must be the bazillionth time I’ve said it out loud. Get used to it, because I’ll be saying this for the rest of my life. :-)

Another reason why I knew I would make this trip was because this trip itself…is an extremely significant trip for me. It symbolizes God’s restoration of my life. Because just a year and a half ago, I remember anticipating the same trip to Singapore and Korea. But that anticipation was deeply tainted by fear, anxiety, and depression. I was eager to see my old friends, but not eager for them to see me. I was excited to be back in my childhood country, but scared to death about the unknown calories, the greasy, carby food, and the unpredictable mealtimes.

The last trip I made to Singapore and Korea, I was…less than 60lbs at a height of almost 5’6. Let’s just leave it at that. The proof is in this picture:

DSC00421 That was the way I greeted my relatives in Korea. That was the way I met my old school friends. My grandpa burst into tears the moment he saw me. It was, to say it nicely, an entirely humbling experience.

As you can see, I wasn’t exaggerating when I said I looked like Gollum from the Lord of the Rings. And I certainly wasn’t exaggerating when I said I was hovering at the line between life and death. My parents really, really did not want to take me to Singapore. Which parent would?

But my dad is a man of prayer, and so he prayed. And he received a strong conviction from the Holy Spirit: “Let her go. I will take care of her. She is more so my daughter than yours.”

And the rest is history. You can read it from the very beginning of my blog. In fact, Burp and Slurp was started on the first day of my arrival in South-East Asia. I cringe when I read the disordered thoughts and behaviors from my past entries, but I keep it, all for the sake of documenting how far I’ve come.

The real purpose for my return to Singapore and Korea is to be a testimony of God’s amazing work on me. I left my relatives worried sick about me. I left my friends in Singapore praying hard and fervently for me. Now, when I return, I want to put my relatives’ worries to rest. I want to show them how great my God is. And I want to prove to my friends in Singapore that God have definitely answered their prayers in the most miraculous way.

To be honest, I still have more work left to do on reaching my goal weight (which is higher than my pre-ED weight, just to be on the safe side). But mentally and spiritually, I feel confident enough to show that God has indeed healed me. Besides, I’m pretty damn sure that with all the food I’m gonna stuff myself with this summer, I’ll have no problem reaching my goal weight by next school semester. Wish me luck, eh? ;-)

So…will you join me? I will most certainly be blogging throughout my trip, as often as I can. Hello? With all the amazing food I’m gonna eat, I’ll die if I can’t share it with you guys.

Let me give you a slight glimpse of what I’m gonna eat. For example, my Hong Kong trip. The last time I was in Hong Kong, I was a 8-year-old brat who thought nothing in the world is better than McNuggets. I complained bitterly when my parents tried to take us to a good seafood restaurant. This time, I’m gonna spend the most marvelous time with my childhood best friend by eating through Hong Kong the proper way. And that means lots and lots of dim sum, seafood, and dumplings, of course.

Just a day ago, I had the privilege of tasting authentic Chinese dumplings since forever with a blogger friend, Yao. Look at how cute she is!
IMG_3655 Yao is a graduate student in USC, and I’ve been running with her each week. She’s also Chinese. With a car. You know what this means. I begged her to take me to an authentic Chinese restaurant. So we did.
IMG_3643 We went to 101 Noodle Express (What is up with Chinese restaurant names? They have the most random names ever) in Alhambra, a town mostly dominated by the Chinese community:
IMG_3644 Look at the line. What’s weird was how freaking hard it was to locate this dingy place. Yet, the Chinese smelled it out like a rat. Nobody knows how to seek out good food like the Chinese. Nobody.
IMG_3645Gosh, I loved this place. I’m not Chinese, but I feel at home among the Chinese. Some civilized people might find the way they eat uncouth, but I find it delightful. It’s simply the way you express enjoyment of your food!
IMG_3647 Look at the guy gleefully gnawing at his chicken! Tee hee!

I came prepared. I knew exactly what I wanted. I also took absolute pleasure in being able to order my dish in Chinese. I haven’t been able to speak Chinese for ages!
IMG_3648 I ordered the pumpkin/pork/shrimp dumplings:
IMG_3650 Yes, you read that right—Pumpkin! In dumplings! With juicy ground pork and real whole shrimp! Oh my Lordie!
IMG_3651 You can actually see the freshly-grated orange pumpkin in there! It was fabulous! The sweet pumpkin accentuated the natural sweetness of the shrimp as well, and even though the dumpling was meaty, the pork flavor was tamed to a perfect balance of meat, veggie, and seafood.
IMG_3654 I had about a cup of vinegared soy sauce with these.

Yao can’t stomach meat very well, so she stuck to the vegetable dumplings:
IMG_3652 She was kind enough to share one with me. What’s nice is that they added vermicelli noodles in there. It tasted a bit like Korean dumplings.
IMG_3656 Now, what’s the difference between Korean and Chinese dumplings, you ask? Well, I’m about to do more than tell you. I’ll show you. This is a Chinese dumpling:
IMG_3649 And these are Korean dumplings:
IMG_3584 If you look closely, you’ll notice that the skin is different. Chinese dumpling skins are much thicker. Also, Chinese dumplings usually are meat-centric, while Korean dumplings tend to pile on the veggies.

And yes, I also had Korean dumplings not so long ago. This time, with a Korean friend. Who also had a car. And yes, I was the one who begged to go to an authentic Korean restaurant.
IMG_3578 We went to Olympic Noodle in Koreatown. No specific reason why it’s called Olympic, other than the fact that it’s on Olympic Boulevard (The sign reads “Olympic Hand-cut Noodles” in Korean, by the way).
IMG_3579 The second we walked in, my friend and I both gasped, “It feels like Korea!” I don’t know why and how I felt that way; I was just washed by this overwhelming sense of nostalgia.
IMG_3594 Maybe it was the flashy yellow lights. Maybe it was that comforting stink of fresh kimchi. Maybe it was the soft background noises of Korean drama from the old-fashioned TV. Or maybe it was the loud slurping noises of Koreans enjoying their noodles. Whatever it was, it felt…home.

Service was quick and fast. The server immediately brought out a dish of pickled radish:
IMG_3583 And also a fresh pot of kimchi:
IMG_3582

Oh MY GAWD!!!!! THE BEST KIMCHI EVER!!! Ahhhh! The stink, the wonderful stink of shrimp paste and fish sauce! The real, authentic 100% made in Korea red pepper! The refreshing, natural sweetness of the cabbage! HOLY FREAKING KIMCHI! I’m so pissed off that I spent $9 on that crappy jar of kimchi from the market, because this is the real shitz, folks!

Sorry for acting like a crazy person, but you have to understand—I’m Korean. I was weaned off my mother’s breast with kimchi. I cannot, cannot, cannot wait to go back to Korea and just pig out on all varieties of kimchi. I’ll come back with kimchi-breath, finally smelling like a true Korean!

Back to the food. As I mentioned, we ordered dumplings:

IMG_3587 Filled with chives and pork, and of course vermicelli noodles:
IMG_3588 These little jewels were gone in a flash. They come sitting on top of steamed cabbage, which we devoured, too.

We also ordered the specialty of the house, the seafood hand-cut noodles, called Kalgooksoo in Korean.
IMG_3589 The bowl. It was three times the size of my head. And my head ain’t that small, guys (It does contain my magnificent brain after all).
IMG_3590 Lovely, authentic, hand-made noodles. They were of inconsistent thickness and length, which proved that they really were hand-cut.
IMG_3592 The only way to eat this is to sluuuurrrrp it up! We got full by the end, and I had to leave behind one lone cockle:
IMG_3593 Sorry I had to leave you swimming, little fella…

I hope I’ve got your appetite all revved up for all the better food to come. Singaporean, Malaysian, Cantonese, Shanghainese, Taiwanese, Korean, and everything in between…loads and loads to come. Yes, there is a difference between all those cuisine, and I’ll try to explain them as much and accurately as I can through my burps and slurps.

Now, all that is in between that and me is that one final stupid exam.

P.S. I’ve been debating whether to post my old ED picture for a very long time. I’ve left off the body, in fear of triggers (who knows how the sick mind of the eating disordered works?). But I think the face itself is expressive enough. But I wanted to show the true ugliness of Anorexia. And the testimony of how God preserved my life. I am still alive and breathing, only through the prayers and love of my family and friends.

Question of the day: What is your favorite kind of dumpling? It doesn’t have to be Asian!

 

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Errign May 12, 2010 at 2:47 pm

I am so excited to follow your journey to Singapore, since I will be there next year for 10 days!

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Naomi(onefitfoodie) May 12, 2010 at 3:26 pm

oh wow….you have come such a long way you should look at those pictures and think nothing of being triggered but more how FAR you have come to this day. you are a tremendous person and have overcome something so huge

those dumplings look SO SO SO good!!! i love shrimp dumplings!!

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msmeanie May 12, 2010 at 3:41 pm

Wow. I think it is absolutely AMAZING how you have changed your life for the better. You have much to be proud of. This sounds like an exciting trip. I look forward to reading your trip posts. Oh, btw — I love steamed vegetable dumplings. My mom also makes an Indian sweet dumpling-type thing that is filled with cheese and semolina, fried, and then dipped in syrup. Oh goodness it is amazing.

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sabrina May 12, 2010 at 4:38 pm

Hi Sophia! I must say I was quite taken aback by the photo but it also shows how far you have come (in such a short period of time too!) You are a testament of God’s power and how he works in ways we cannot see. You’re such an inspiration.

It’s great that you managed to get tickets to Singapore and on Buisness class to boot!!! I once sat on SIA’s business class and the food was ammmaaazzzing. Best airplane food ever, hands down.

Favourite dumpling?? Definitely would have to be xiao long bao (Shanghainese dumpling) – oozing with soup. Yum!

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Katie May 12, 2010 at 9:28 pm

Sophia, I am AMAZED at how far you’ve come. There are no words that are adequate enough to say how proud I (and all of us) are of you, and how appreciative I am that you’ve shared your story with us. There are so many people who need to read this… and see that picture.

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Barbara May 12, 2010 at 10:21 pm

You are the most amazing, incredible INSPIRING STRONG girl! I think you are beautiful, and only wish you could see what we all see in you! This post was so moving! I LOVE KIMCHEE! For you (Kimchee Aficionado/connoisseur) that is saying something!! Wow- I’m envious! I am so happy you are able to take this trip! You deserve to have fun and LIVE!
XOXOXO
Barbara

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grace May 12, 2010 at 10:25 pm

Sophia, I am in awe of your courage and endurance and am SO proud of what you’ve achieved in such a short amount of time! You are such an inspiration and my heart and prayers go out to you.

Six months ago, I was at the deepest depths of my ED and was in complete denial. I didn’t know that what I had was ED. I had no idea. Our culture has a distorted view of eating disorders…as something that is vain and only associated with stick-thin models. I thought all of the disordered thoughts I had were because I was going crazy or something. I couldn’t even fathom that someone else was going through what I was going through.

Then in some miraculous way, I came across your blog. In the first entry I read, you talked about all of these ED-oriented thoughts and your struggles with shutting out the evil voices of ED, and you also wrote about your amazing faith and how you were more than convinced that you will get through this.

I was in shock. There was someone in this world who was or went through what I was going through. Holy shit, I’m not crazy…I’m just sick. There is hope for me.

Your blog inspired me to turn my life around. Although I did struggle with being proactive with recovery, I made myself seek help at the hospital on my campus. I met with an ED team who have been nothing but wonderful, and I have found an amazing therapist who I feel connected to on a whole other level beyond a doctor-patient relationship.

It’s been about four months since starting recovery, and although I’m still struggling, I’m still FIGHTING. I know that I lose battles here and there, but I will definitely win the war.

Thank you for being an inspiration and for so bravely sharing your story. Thank you for unknowingly changing my life, and thank you for strengthening my relationship with God.

I hope you have the most wonderful trip! Your loved ones will be so delighted to see God’s miracles that occurred within you!

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sophia May 13, 2010 at 1:11 pm

Wow, Grace. Thank you. SO much for sharing this with me. It means so much to me that my story can actually help someone, anyone, in any little way. I am utterly humbled by how God is using my weakness to empower and build relationships with His loved ones.

Grace, I have absolute faith that you CAN overcome this…because as you said, your relationship with God has strengthened through this. And that means that there is absolute purpose in your suffering. You are weak, but He is strong. Not that you are not strong,as you had to be in order to be proactive about your recovery, but nobody has the strength to overcome our own disordered minds, except Him. So have hope, be courgeous, and win this battle, my dear Grace!

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tigerfish May 13, 2010 at 1:01 am

The queue looks like what you will see in Hong Kong in a few…

Lucky that person gnawing the chicken is not me! Hahah….

I’m just leaving happy thoughts for you here, sweetie :D …always look ahead.

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Faith May 13, 2010 at 3:39 am

Wow, Sophia, what a phenomental testimonial you have! It takes SO MUCH courage to make a change in your life like that…you are amazing. And an inspiration. (*Big hug!*)

And business class?! Very, very exciting! I hope you take pics of the food, lol! :)

Have a fabulous time in Singapore, Sophia!

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Mara @ What's For Dinner? May 13, 2010 at 6:17 am

I’m absolutely blown away by how far you’ve come. i knew you were a strong woman, but I had no idea the extent of your amazingness…

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OysterCulture May 13, 2010 at 3:51 pm

You have me blown away, but still here to comment. I cannot believe how far you’ve come and am so happy that this trip will be so different than the last. I hope you are excited both to see your friends and family but especially for them to see you and with an incredible healthy body to carry that vibrant creative mind we know and love. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us. I can see from reading through the comments that you’ve helped a lot of people, and I hope you are proud of that. Gave a wonderful awesome trip, and I will try not to get too jealous that you are in one of my favorite eating towns. I’m trying real hard….

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Chef E May 13, 2010 at 6:53 pm

I had to come over and visit, I have been away for a while on my on stuff, but am glad to hear you are walking a better path. I too have an ED with over eating sweets, something we learned from our mother, and it is a tough path to get away from. I will keep you in my prayers and hope that we continue to hear good things. I find myself going sometimes all day with out food, and will drink tea or eat something sweet, and my husband gets mad at me, so I want too see a younger person like you succeed! Peace to you and your family…

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Jackie (Peaces of Earth) May 14, 2010 at 10:30 am

Hi Sofia, I’m lucky to have found your blog through Choosing Raw. Wow, I am blown away by your story. You’re AMAZING! You’ve come SO far, and should be so proud of yourself. I love the concept of your blog too – ’cause really, who doesn’t burp and slurp?!

Now I really want to go buy some kimchi… Too bad my roommate doesn’t appreciate the smell. I just don’t get her! :)

Jackie

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hungry trojan May 14, 2010 at 11:56 pm

God bless you and may He continue to do the great things He’s doing in your life! And fight on, always Fight On.

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thenomadGourmand May 15, 2010 at 12:22 am

Oh my God… that pic shocked me really.. I nvr imagine…

It’s so brave and selfless of you to share really..I cant wait to see u & give u a big hug!

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Kerstin May 15, 2010 at 12:43 pm

Your picture made me tear up and I can only imagine how your family felt. I’m so glad you beat your ED and are still with us – your strength is amazing.

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Danielle (Coffee Run) May 15, 2010 at 7:37 pm

Sophia, you should be damn proud of how far you’ve come. You have a lot of strength & courage and I know you’re story is going to touch other people out there.

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Susan May 17, 2010 at 3:15 pm

Dearest Sophia, I am catching up and want to say how PROUD I am of you of how far you’ve come. Actually, proud hardly even covers it. I started reading your blog shortly after you began it, and I remember how you struggled on that last trip. Going into this one so much healthier is an AMAZING accomplishment. Don’t ever forget how strong and wonderful you really are!

Please say there’s a stopover in Canada so we can get a Big Mac Snack Wrap together ;)

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Jasmine (sweet and fit) May 17, 2010 at 8:03 pm

girl! yet another one of my fav posts – you are amazing! i am so proud to be your friend to have met you! love ya and please stay in touch!

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Lahoma Holan June 21, 2010 at 8:43 pm

Amazing, I adore Miley Cyrus and her Can’t Be Tamed record album. I would need to say that either Permanent December or Take Me Along are likely my best liked songs. She’s matured from her Hannah Montana days!

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diesel September 12, 2010 at 11:53 am

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Ruby on Rails Interview questions April 8, 2011 at 11:35 pm

Wow. I think it is absolutely AMAZING how you have changed your life for the better. You have much to be proud of. This sounds like an exciting trip. I look forward to reading your trip posts. Oh, btw — I love steamed vegetable dumplings. My mom also makes an Indian sweet dumpling-type thing that is filled with cheese and semolina, fried, and then dipped in syrup. Oh goodness it is amazing.

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New Reader May 14, 2011 at 5:25 pm

You are AMAZING> HOnestly…honestly honestly!!! Seeing this picture…it gives ME HOPE…thank u for that…just a question or two
- u went into hospital after this picture? or no? how long in hospital?
- and at such a severely low low weight, how did u gradually introduce foods? i find myself overwhelmed by all the foods and i’m differeent than most…i’m much much much older….and my liver, kidneys, and colon are not good right now(my elimination is absolutely horrendous)…so how do u creep into things?
i’ve taken it so far…i don’t even exercise or move Sophia…not at all, not at all…i just sit all the time (i’m only 5 feet 1.5, and about 15 lbs heavier than u in that picture…so i guess i’m not near as bad as u are in that picture….and i’m strongly strongly not well…in terms of no energy, burnt out to a crisp…bowels not good , etc…yet, i’m like that….and i still binge on cookies and crap…and overeat things vs. being gentle on my poor body that can’t digest it properly..ugh…i must must try harder to be brave. If you have thoughts on this comment, email me.

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AnnQ July 6, 2011 at 8:40 pm

Wow, wow, wow….your openness and honesty has just blown me away (I mean that in a good way :-) ). I’m so absolutely impressed, to say the least, with your post, and with how far you’ve come. You have A LOT to be proud of, and you’re so incredibly brave! :-)

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Louise October 7, 2011 at 3:20 pm

I am so proud of you, Sophia. But much more importantly you should give yourself and your family a huge pat on the back! I’m sure their patience and confidence and your tenacity have seen you through many trying moments.

Thank you so much for sharing your experience and that awesome food with us. It takes a brave person to open up as you have much the same way it took that young gentleman to dig into those ribs!

Have a wonderful trip! You are in my prayers…Good Luck!!!

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