I’m a Humble Human Bean

March 29, 2010

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Last week was, frankly, a tornado for me. My mind was whirring with so many anxieties and zeal and flurries that I felt as if I’d been caught in the middle of a tornado. By the end of the week, my body and mind were barely functioning. My head spun like the aftermath of a rollercoaster ride, my eyes were painfully dried up, and my fingers were literally trembling. On Sunday morning, I could barely get out of bed, and slept a full 11 hours straight. 

A lot of times, I overestimate the capabilities and endurance of my physical body. I get the illusion that I’m almost invincible, and that delusion feeds me a certain amount of adrenaline that keeps me persisting…until my body can take no longer and crash.

No matter how strong, how intelligent, how talented one may be, you will always be restricted by the limits of your human body and mind. And that…is incredibly humbling. And in a strange way, also oddly relieving to realize that you are not almighty. You are not a Super; you are just human. You do the best you can do, and that is enough. Leave the rest to God, who is the only one truly unrestrained by this three-dimensional, flesh-and-blood body.

I experienced this the night before my two exams. I was frantically trying to finish all the reading that I’ve missed, but at one point, my brain was so overloaded that nothing was going in. My brain was like a machine that just sparked and fizzled from overheating. Meanwhile, my body was aching from hunching at the desk, and my fingers were cramped from hours of note-taking. Together, my mind and body screamed, “STOP!!”

So I did. Despite the fact that I had my two exams the next day, I put all notes and textbooks aside, and rested (i.e, watch Hulu and read blogs!).

The next day, I got up an hour before my first exam, and tried to continue on with my studies, but my mind was not cooperating. In despair, I cried out to God: “Okay, I know it’s all my fault that I didn’t prepare well and pay attention in class…I’ve learned my lesson. But now, please…just help me out a little. At least let me know that I’m not alone, that you are with me. I’m weak, and I need you.”

And with that earnest, desperate prayer, I re-read my notes. What happened then was definitely not from my own intelligence and power, but all of a sudden, everything became clear to me. It was like God lifted the murky fog from my mind, and I began to actually assimilate all the information—not just to learn it, but understand it, and even connect and view it with the entirety of the course. It was amazing.

The exam was still freaking hard. Obviously, God wasn’t gonna make it super easy for me when I clearly did not perform my duty as a student. But from that one experience, I regained my humility: I am but a creation, a human. I also have but this one body. It’s not all-powerful, but if I treat it and utilize it well, it will serve me well.

Thankfully, I did not get sick—though allergies have hit me bad this year, and a startling amount of fluids I’ve never knew I had inside me is running out of my nose constantly. Sorry, TMI? ;-)

My poor roommate is not faring better. She’s gotten sick, and is suffering from congestion, too. Between the two of us, we must have used up 7 boxes of tissues within a week.

How appropriate, that Celestial Seasonings just sent me some samples of their “Natural Wellness” kit:
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  • Four Wellness teas to ease  symptoms associated with the cold and flu: Sleepytime Extra, Echinacea Complete Care, Tummy Mint, and AM Detox
  • Two green teas to support a healthy immune system year round: Authentic Green Tea and Honey Lemon Ginseng Green Tea
  • A bonus seasonal tea: Sugar Cookie Sleigh Ride

I was so happy to receive this seasonal tea!

IMG_3007 It’s one of my favorite teas, and I swear, it’s like drinking liquid sugar cookies. Without the sugar high and crash, of course. Always a plus.

I gave this one to my dear roommate:
IMG_3008 Hopefully it will help her with her cold. Get well soon, roomie! :-)

And I’m drinking lots of cups of this one:
IMG_3009 It didn’t exactly whisk away my allergies, but it sure tastes really good, with a subtle, creamy vanilla flavor.

I’ve already drunk a few cups of this one:
IMG_3162 Because I overate on nuts and my tummy was hating on me. I loved the minty, refreshing fragrance. It definitely helped my aching tummy.

But I think my favorite, besides the Sugar Cookie Sleigh Ride, is this one:
IMG_3041Never thought of sweetening green tea…but the hint of honey flavor in it was really soothing and delightful.

Don’t be envious of my lovely tea stash…Celestial Seasonings is offering one of you a $60 worth “Natural Wellness” kit, which includes all those above tea (besides the Sugar Cookie Sleigh Ride) plus:

  • Mug
  • soothing lip balm
  • honey sticks
  • Celestial Seasonings Sleepytime Bear
  • The book Herbs for Health and Happiness by Celestial Seasonings founder Mo Siegel and Nancy Burke

Sweet deal, yes? What are you waiting for? Enter! Here’s the ways you can enter, for each entry:

  1. Comment by answering the Question of the Day (listed below)
  2. Tweet: “Celestial Seasonings Natural Wellness Kit kicks the flu’s butt Giveaway @burp_excuzme: http://bit.ly/aR7NmM” and leave another comment telling me you did so
  3. Mention it on your blog, and leave me a comment with a link to your blog post

That’s it, folks! And one lucky winner will have all the accessories to help chase the Spring flu, allergies, yadee yadee yadah away!

But let me remind you…one more thing that is awesome for preventing sickness: chicken soup. Duh.

I’m so proud of myself. I actually made some seriously kick-ass chicken porridge…from scratch! Thanks to the awesome slow-cooker I received from Christina, I was able to make my own chicken stock. It’s the easiest thing ever—just chop up a bunch of vegetables (doesn’t matter what and how much), throw it into a slow-cooker with a chicken carcass, pour plenty of water over, and slow-cook for about 12-18 hours.

Then strain the carcass and vegetables away, collecting all the precious chicken-juice into a container, and put it in the fridge. The next day, skim off the fat. And there you go! Pure, homemade chicken stock!

I used it to make my mom’s chicken rice porridge:

Mom’s Chicken Rice Porridge (Slow-Cooker)

  • garlic
  • bit of fresh ginger
  • celery
  • carrots
  • shitake mushrooms
  • white rice
  • chicken stock
  • cooked chicken, shredded
  • sesame oil
  • soy sauce
  • green onions, chopped
  • toasted nori, shredded

Put everything except the cooked chicken into the slow-cooker. I didn’t add measurements because it’s really all up to your own taste preference.

Cook at high for about 4 hours, and then low for about 6 more hours. Before serving, stir in the cooked shredded chicken. Season with salt and pepper.
IMG_2986 When ready to serve, ladle desired amount into a bowl. Drizzle in sesame oil and soy sauce, and top with green onions and nori. Serve!
IMG_2978 The best comfort bowl ever. It’s actually been scientifically proven that chicken soup really does wonders for colds. Apparently it’s because of the combination of ginger, garlic, and chicken in there.
IMG_2980 But I’ll bet the biggest factor for cold remedy is because it reminds you of care and love…at least, that’s the way it is for me. When I first went into refeeding after my hospitalization from anorexia, my mom made this every single day for me. At the time, I pretended that I hated it, and complained bitterly. But in truth, I relished it, because I knew my mom made it with deep affection and love.
IMG_2981 Each spoonful and bite really tasted like it’s been infused with my mom’s love. I’m not trying to be disgustingly sentimental here…but I really felt teary and missed my mom a lot while I ate this.
IMG_2984 Amazing how something so simple and plain can be stuffed with so much meaning and emotions, isn’t it? I gave a bowl of this chicken rice porridge to a friend of mine, and this is what she said, word for word: “Oh wow. This is better than my mom’s!”

Wow. Is that not the best compliment one can have? Though, I hope her mom never reads this.

So here’s the Question of the Day for you: Which dish holds a lot of sentiment for you? It can be any kind of emotions, and connected with any kind of events and people.

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Karin March 30, 2010 at 2:15 am

I agree, things can be so overwhelming sometimes. Yesterday I knew that my mind wanted to run and go to yoga but I just couldn’t force myself to do it. I needed some rest and relaxation. Sometimes that’s the most important thing on earth.

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Averie (LoveVeggiesAndYoga) March 30, 2010 at 2:15 am

the food that holds alot of sentiment is my grandma’s cooking, but she’s dead and gone and so are her recipes and it’s sad but my childhood memories are priceless!

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Averie (LoveVeggiesAndYoga) March 30, 2010 at 2:16 am

tweeted

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Hanna M. March 30, 2010 at 2:22 am

When I was sick as a kid the only thing I could eat was porridge made from semolina (course, not the fine-ground flour). My father used to make this thick porridge and add lots of sugar and butter (yup! sugar, butter and wheat) on top, then pleading me to eat it all. Today this stands for me as a symbol of his care for me, like the chicken porridge is for you as your mothers love. (But I think I would leave out most of the sugar today ;)

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Hanna M. March 30, 2010 at 2:24 am

-and I’ve tweeted about the contest as @hannamaja. Thank you, and a speedy recovery!

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Tatianna March 30, 2010 at 3:54 am

Sophia :)
If ever I am wavering on the path of life, your blog always, without fail, shows me that I am part of something greater. Thank you so much :)
Chicken rice porridge?! That looks fantastic… I actually despise chicken noodle soup, but I think the rice would be quite nice.

A sentimental dish for me would have to be Chilli. My mom makes amazing chilli, and I always go back for seconds. Before my ED, I used to work really hard at a horse barn, riding and doing chores. I would come home absolutely exhausted, and she would be there after a hard day of work herself, with a big bowl of chilli covered in cheddar cheese steaming hot and waiting for me on the table. If that’s not love I don’t know what is :)

<3 Tat

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Betherann March 30, 2010 at 4:01 am

I tweet tweet tweeted!

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Betherann March 30, 2010 at 4:02 am

I just love the word “porridge.” It makes me think of Goldilocks.

As for a sentimental dish…my grandma’s cabbage salad. She’s the only one who can make it just right, and she always makes it just for me.

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Julia March 30, 2010 at 4:13 am

‘Better than my moms’, ha ha! I must say: it looks delicious!
Big hug to you for finishing the exam and hope you feel 100% better really soon!

xxx Julia (taste of Living)

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The Candid RD March 30, 2010 at 4:24 am

Mmm, this porridge looks great!! I don’t think I have ever had “porridge” before. I mean I don’t really understand the difference between porridge and stew, but I’ve had stew…never porridge. Anyway, I hope it is helping you and your roommate feel a little better, and relax a bit. For me, a dish that holds a lot of sentiment is ANY lasagna. It reminds me of my grandma who made it for me WHENEVER I used to visit her. I can still smell its unique and delicious smell….it was just so delicious.

I’m glad you survived your exams!! Next time, no procrastinating :)

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Barbara March 30, 2010 at 5:33 am

I am so glad you are feeling a bit better! Sorry you had to go through all of that!
My memories- potato salad, cesaer salad, her European soups with sour cream/butter milk, famous wine cream parmesan chicken,cabbage, spanakopita, couscous, her cakes (amazing) with Bavarian cream and hummus!
I loved this post. I also would love to win this giveaway!
Barbara

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coco March 30, 2010 at 5:36 am

yummy rice porridge! I miss those!!!
kabocha means comfort for me, an habit developed in US. :)

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rustique March 30, 2010 at 6:17 am

Hmm, when I’m sick it’s definitely Mama’s turkey soup–always fresh-made stock, big hearty chunks of root vegetables, fresh rosemary and thyme, and homemade warm, crusty bread. Works like a charm.

Your bowl of comfort looks like a delicious rift on my bowl of comfort! I love that green tea–it’s raining here and I’m going to stop and buy a cup.

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Sophie @ yumventures March 30, 2010 at 6:21 am

Eclairs are always sentimental for me…my middle name is ClareAnn, and thats what I used to call them when I was little. I thought they were named after me :)

I always make myself SO sick when I have exams. But those realizations that you want to understand the material, not just be able to take the test, those are most important!

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Susan March 30, 2010 at 6:52 am

So glad your exam went “okay”. I’ve hit that mental roadblock before and it’s tough!

My mom and I have a dish we call “grammy rice” because my grandma used to make it. Basically, it’s brown rice cooked with a pat of salted butter and a little bit of cream. So simple, yet so comforting.

I hope you feel better soon chica!

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Madeline- Greens and Jeans March 30, 2010 at 7:02 am

Whenever I got sick in college my mom would always put money in my bank account so I could go buy quinoa, veggie stock, corn, and black beans. That was always my go to sick food and since she couldn’t be there to throw it all together for me, at least she made it easy for me to go pick it up!

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brandi March 30, 2010 at 7:03 am

First, I love reading your posts. I don’t always comment, but you have such a way with words. So glad I finally got to meet you last November :) I hope we get to see each other again!

I have a few dishes that are special to me. First is my mom’s chicken casserole. There’s nothing gourmet about it, but it just feels like home. Hers always tastes better to me than anyone else’s. My Mammaw’s roast and noodles is a recipe that I don’t even know how to make. She does something amazing with simple ingredients, and this meal is usually reserved for birthdays.

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Astra Libris March 30, 2010 at 7:05 am

I’m SO happy for you that your exams went so well, and I’m so awed in the strength of your faith and your focus that enabled you to excell and rise above the stress – YOU ROCK, girl!!!

I hope you feel better soon!! Your rice porrage looks sooooo incredible… (and I LOVE the honey lemon ginseng green tea!!)

Ahhh, my most comforting, memorable dish is my grandmother’s black eyed peas and stewed tomatoes… She’s very elderly and not well right now, and I get choked up thinking of all the wonderful memories of her cooking this simple, soothing dish for me when I was small…

Thank you for the great question, and the great reminder to keep in mind the special memories and meanings of food!

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Christina March 30, 2010 at 7:24 am

Great giveaway – I love tea!

A sentimental food for me would have to be my Mom’s cinnamon sugar toast. She used to make it for me on sick days from school and whenever I try to recreate it, it doesn’t come out the same. I don’t understand why though because it seems so simple to make!

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elra March 30, 2010 at 7:38 am

A bowl of warm chicken rice porridge can calm my anxiety for sure! your mom’s recipe sound wonderful Sophia!

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Susan March 30, 2010 at 8:27 am

Okay Sophia, I have read up on making chicken stock a million times and have never been able to wrap my head around it. You explain it, and it sounds like the easiest thing ever!! I can totally do that! Also, I’ve never heard of chicken porridge but I want to try it SO badly now. Warm porridge with chunks of chicken sounds delightful.

Also delightful – free tea!!

Rest up and don’t get sick! Only a few more days till Easter break :D

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Carolyn March 30, 2010 at 9:05 am

I retweeted! http://twitter.com/snarkyeditrix/status/11314960468. A dish my mom calls “diet sundae” always reminds me of the summers of my childhood in NJ. It’s basically just fruit salad with cottage cheese, walnuts and raisins, but it’s so tasty and filling.

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Mary March 30, 2010 at 9:58 am

YUM! Those teas look delicious. I think as far as my ‘sentimental’ dish, I’d have to go with my mom’s homemade chicken spaetzle soup. It’s my favorite dish of hers, and it’s one that has made its way through the generations. I’m currently studying abroad in London, and when I come home in three weeks, you better believe it’s the first thing I want to eat!

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Lauren @ BIOCHEMISTA March 30, 2010 at 11:16 am

Hi! New reader here :) Great blog! Love this post. Very enlightening!!!

I’d have to say chicken pot pie or New England Style Vegetables. I used to eat those all the time as a kid :)

Have a great day!

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joy March 30, 2010 at 11:27 am

I totally have to be york peppermint patties and I won’t eat them anymore – I was eating one as my mother died and they scare me know

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lz March 30, 2010 at 12:21 pm

Humility – what a great point you raise. We want to think that we are capable of so much, and it can be so difficult to realize that we have limits. My favorite meal is creamy clam chowder… yum, reminds me of good times with my family at restaurants.

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Emily (A Nutritionist Eats) March 30, 2010 at 1:41 pm

So jealous that you got the sugar cookie sleigh ride!

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Crystal March 30, 2010 at 1:44 pm

Fried egg sandwiches…they remind me of my dad and when we lived together while I was in college. He taught me how to make them really, really, really good and I always think of him when I make one! Oh yea…and omelettes…same reason! :)

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Ashlei March 30, 2010 at 2:00 pm

Not that I eat it anymore, but mac and cheese and carrot souffle were always dear to me. They were my childhood favorites and always remind me of my mom.

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Ashlei March 30, 2010 at 2:00 pm
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Lisa March 30, 2010 at 2:14 pm

My week last week sounds just like yours. I had a big test on Friday that i wasn’t prepared for me and there came a point where studying wasn’t helping me any so I just stopped and went to the bed. The next day I re-read over some stuff, and like you–it all clicked.

I thought the first half of this post was beautiful and really demonstrated that sometimes you just have to leave it to God.

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BroccoliHut March 30, 2010 at 3:10 pm

I, too, am guilty of the invincibility illusion–sometimes I forget that my body can’t go non-stop and not suffer the consequences.
A recipe that holds a lot of sentiment for me is my mom’s pumpkin bread. She makes it every year for the holidays, and she distributes a loaf to each of our friends and family. I have fond memories of toting around a bag full of the loaves to all my teachers at Christmas-time.

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Michelle March 30, 2010 at 3:34 pm

Hmm quite a lot of dishes have a lot of sentimental value for me. One of my most memorable birthday fests included cheese baked over lobster and Cantonese noodles. It was like a less creamy asian carbonara….and that is the ONLY cheese dish that i have ever loved and eaten with my family as a whole.

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iga@thedelishdish March 30, 2010 at 3:50 pm

wow sounds like you’ve had quite the week! at least you get to relax a bit now. i also find comfort in a chicken soup my mom used to make…its a broth based soup that i managed to make myself last week & have been enjoying the momories it bring back :)

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Tiffany March 30, 2010 at 4:00 pm

I’m totally with you on thinking I am a superwoman! I crashed about a month ago (maybe you read it on my post?) and could not function properly anymore. What made me think I could handle a class, a thesis, and 3 jobs? And what’s bad is that I’m starting to crash again now that it’s getting closer to my thesis deadline. Yeah… I need to remember that I’m just a humble human bean sometimes too. :) I’m so glad you rested that night and didn’t push your mind/body any harder.

And oh my gosh… CHICKEN JOOK is amazing. I got really excited when I saw it on your post!! It definitely holds a special place in my heart because my mom made it when I was sick. And now she makes is sometimes even when I’m not sick, just because I crave it’s yumminess! Another thing that brings me back to my childhood is red bean paste-filled mochi. I used to eat them eeeeeveryday after school and they were so yummy!

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Tiffany March 30, 2010 at 4:03 pm

tweeted! (liltiff917)

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Tiffany March 30, 2010 at 4:04 pm
Valerie March 30, 2010 at 4:05 pm

I hope you’re better now, Sophia. Exams do take its toll on us somehow. I love my mum’s good ol’ chicken porridge too! It brings up so many nice comforting memories.

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figtreeapps March 30, 2010 at 6:38 pm

Girl..I think you need a vacation!!! xoxo

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Faith March 30, 2010 at 6:47 pm

I hope you’re feeling better with your allergies! Today on the thruway to work I sneezed 7 times in a row…it was scary closing my eyes while driving (because of the whole eye-closing reflex, lol)! I’ve got allergies too. I think I need to make this porridge! :)

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teresa March 30, 2010 at 6:48 pm

i remember those school days, be sure to take care of yourself!

i can’t think of a particular dish, but i cherish every second that i get in the kitchen with my mom. she’s got the golden touch!

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Joelle (The Pancake Girl) March 30, 2010 at 7:34 pm

That porridge looks so thick and yummy. The most sentimental value-filled food to me would definitely be pancakes (surprise, surprise) or any of my favorite Italian dishes my mama always whipped up as a little girl.

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tasteofbeirut March 30, 2010 at 7:40 pm

Glad you received some tea! I have a motto that i try to stick by: thou shall not use packaged tea (herbal) when one can make it at home with loose herbs and spices.
As far as the next item on the agenda, looks good and healthy! Way to go Sophia!

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Lisa March 30, 2010 at 10:53 pm

My mom’s cooking, especially her homemade bread from scratch. I miss it a lot while I’m at college!

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marie March 31, 2010 at 5:19 am

Congrats, what a week! OK, I’m going to go out on a limb here and give you my 2 cents on God. I believe prayer is not so much about asking God for help as it is about letting go and allowing yourself to recognize and harness (through God) the strength you had in you all along. God gives us more credit than we give ourselves — HE knew you could do it, it was just a matter of helping you realize it yourself! Hope this doesn’t offend you, I mean it respectfully. I admire you a lot for all you do, AND of course for all your killer recipes! :-)

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Andrea @ CanYouStayForDinner.com March 31, 2010 at 5:43 am

I just love the homemade spaghetti and meatballs that my stepdad makes. This meal is among the best I’ve ever eaten and it is made with such love, care, and patience. Each and every time I eat it I feel at home, comforted, and fulfilled.
I love your chicken porridge, it looks so delicious! I bet your mom would be proud of a meal like that!!

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Lorraine @NotQuiteNigella March 31, 2010 at 6:37 am

Aww Sophia what a sweet story and isn’t homemade the best as it’s made with love! :D

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Kelsey March 31, 2010 at 8:01 am

my dad’s homemade pasta and marinara sauce holds a special place in my heart!!

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Kelsey March 31, 2010 at 8:01 am

tweeted! @carrothead

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