New Year’s Self-Reflection Part II: Dreams and Goals

December 31, 2009

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Happy New Year’s Eve!!! In less than 24 hours, it’ll be January 1st, 2010! Say it out loud several times and revel in the excitement of a whole, brand new year! In less than 24 hours, I’ll also be on the bus to New York City with my cousin…It’ll be a one-day express trip, because we can’t afford the exorbitant hotel fees, and my cousin practically threatened suicide if I don’t fulfill her “New Years in NYC” dream.

I’ve never spent New Years in NYC before. I’ve never spent a winter in NYC before! Supposedly, it’s gonna rain ice that day. Not really looking forward to that, but who knows? I might still be able to have fun. At least, I know for certain my cousin is gonna have fun…and this trip is all about her. Yeah, I’m amazed at my own self-sacrifice for my cousin’s happiness. The only reason I even agreed to go to NYC was to meet my bloggie friends there, but none of them could make it. I was devastated, but I now realize that it’s just part of God’s plan to kick off my 2010 dream to start.

Which brings me to Part II of my New Year Self-Reflection: Dreams and Goals.

When I asked a few people what their dreams were, they replied that they would rather not set goals, because setting such goals would inevitably lead to failure and disappointment. But I disagree. Without a vision in mind, our days will be spent wandering and aimless. It would be like a race without a finish line, a battle without a prize. At some point in our life, we’ll wonder, “What’s the point?” and give up. But the important thing in dreams is that the goal is not perfection.

Nobody is perfect. If we were, there really is no point in living anymore, because life is all about learning, experiencing, and growing. But a lot of us still struggle with that desire to attain perfection. I sure did. I wanted to be the most beautiful, most talented, most powerful, most intelligent, most popular person on earth. Maybe not explicitly, but it was certainly a very attractive and appealing idea to me. As I became lured into petty schoolgirl competition, I became absorbed into the beauty aspect of perfection, which eventually led to my eating disorder. Ironically, not only did I lose beauty, I lost everything else: my academic capability, my passion in pursuing my talents, my place in society, my friends.

So my dream for 2010 is to recover all that, starting with beauty. I want to be beautiful. But not in that physical way I once desired. I want to be beautiful human being, one who exudes beauty not in a superficial way, but from the innermost being. And notice that I emphasized “human being”. That means that I want to be beautiful, with flaws, imperfections, and all.

My dream is to be exactly the way God created me to be: beautiful. He’s given me so many blessings and gifts; it’s time for me to use them, and to share them. The year 2009 has been an amazing year because of all the blessings and love I’ve received. This 2010 year, I don’t want to just be a receiver. I want to be a giver. I want to shine, not with temporarily attractive physical qualities, but with timeless, infinite, and meaningful qualities: Love. Patience. Gentleness. Humility. Empathy. Generosity.

It’s not gonna be easy to mold these qualities into myself, because…let’s face it. I’m not loving, patient, gentle, humble, empathetic, or generous. But that’s why I need God. That’s why I’m not God, but a human being who needs His daily guidance and teachings. My goal is to make each day progressive, to grow and learn and mold myself every single day, to become more like Christ.

If that means sacrificing my personal comfort to provide my cousin a day of fun, so be it. :-)

And if that also means spending time with other beautiful people, hell yeah!

Last night, my best friend Joanna, and her whole family came over for dinner. I’ve praised Joanna in this post, so I’ll just praise her mother this time. Her mom is actually one of my favorite person:

IMG_2088 Look at her! A tiny woman, but with a face gleaming with sweetness and delight in the Lord! She is one of the most passionate, enthusiastic, and dedicated woman I know. She never sits still in the house; she’s always out and about helping and counseling others, and everyone just loves her.

Besides Joanna and her mom, we also invited her brother, James, his fiancée, and his fiancée’s younger sister:
IMG_2069 Here they are praying. Joanna’s mom insisted we do a little worship before eating, so we sung a few hymns too:
IMG_2066 And then my dad preached.

It was a good message, but both my cousin and I couldn’t help wondering when we could start eating:
IMG_2070 Well the feast soon began! And what a FEAST!

My mom went all out. She made several of Jame’s favorite dish:
IMG_2056 Pajeon, or Korean scallion pancakes.
IMG_2055 It’s pan-fried, chock full of scallions, squid, shrimp, potatoes, and onions, with a chewy rice-flour batter.
IMG_2058IMG_2085  She also made napa cabbage kimchi:
IMG_2053 My favorite!! This dish was gone within 5 minutes. I’m not kidding!

Another napa cabbage dish:
IMG_2054Cabbage stewed in fermented soybean paste with dried anchovies. Not for the faint-hearted. I’ll bet if I served this to you, you’d run the other way, because it stinks.
IMG_2062 But hey, stinky food tastes so damn good.

My mom also made Korean BBQ ribs!
IMG_2074 Served by my brother. What is with his disgruntled expression? Doesn’t he realize that I’m giving him a few minutes of fame on my fabulous blog?
IMG_2075 These were sticky, slightly sweet from honey and fresh-squeezed orange juice. I might ask my mom for the recipe, but she’ll probably say something like, “Oh, just this and that all together”.
IMG_2076 The final dish my mom made was stir-fried shrimp:
IMG_2082 I have no idea how this tastes like since I didn’t eat it. I don’t care for shrimp, and I wanted to save tummy space for the wonderful dishes Joanna’s mom made!

Joanna’s mom brought some impressive dishes as well. First, some kind of New Year noodle dish:
IMG_2052 I’m not sure what this is called, but it’s a mix of pork, radishes, carrots, cucumbers, bean sprouts, cabbage, and rice noodles in a sweet and sour wasabi vinaigrette. I dominated this, despite the wasabi making my nose run. It was fantastic!
IMG_2071 All it needed was some chopped dry-roasted peanuts. I still had fourths of this:
IMG_2077 Joanna’s mom also brought steamed fish:
IMG_2061 Fresh-caught fish! And when I say fresh-caught, I mean that Joanna’s uncle caught this fish himself in the sea. It was butchered, flipping and flapping, alive in Joanna’s house. Love it.
IMG_2081 Steamed, and then topped with some kind of soy sauce-sesame oil mixture, and ready to dig in! Fresh fish is best prepared simple with minimal ingredients!

But the highlight of that evening, in my opinion, was the hand-made dumplings Joanna’s mom made:
IMG_2078 From the filling to the dumpling wrapper, everything was made by hand. Which is probably why it’s SO FREAKING delicious.
IMG_2079 Filled with shrimp, egg, and Chinese chives. Ooh la la.
IMG_2084 Now, there is this Chinese tradition, in which they put a ball of dough into one single dumpling. Whoever who finds the dough-ball in the dumpling is promised great blessings in the new year. Kind of like that English tradition with the penny in the pudding, or something like that. But anyway. Guess WHO found the dough-ball?
IMG_2087 Yours truly!
IMG_2099 Wa hahahaha! Oh hohohohoh! Ee Heehehehehehee!

IMG_2102I’m gonna be blessed! I’m gonna be blessed! 

IMG_2112

Not that I didn’t already know it, but it’s been confirmed by a ball of dough, so it’s got to be true, right? ;-)

We celebrated with glasses of wine:

IMG_2063 And I promptly fell into a food coma:
IMG_2094 Zzzzzzzz…

Dreaming sweet dreams now! I hope all of you are dreaming sweet dreams for the new year, too!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Question of the day: What is your personal image of yourself for the 2010? What kind of person do you dream to be?

P.S. Exciting news: DC blogger meet up on January 2nd, 2010 (whoa, sounds weird to write that)!! At 1 pm, in a lovely place called Zest Bistro. If you can make it, please send me an email!

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  2. The Tale of Two Dumplings
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  4. Well-Rounded Confidence
  5. To Be Ambi-Social

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Carolyn Jung January 1, 2010 at 7:47 pm

What a knockout feast! How come I wasn’t invited? Hah. Just teasing. If you have leftovers, though, I will gladly take a doggie bag to-go. ;)

Wishing you a most wonderful 2010! May it bring you everything you so richly deserve. Cheers!

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ForTheLoveOfBerries January 1, 2010 at 9:27 pm

Congrats on the new blog! Great way to start off the New Year’s!

My mama made Korean scallion pancakes once with some kimchi in it and man was it A-MAZING! We also make dumplings from scratch. Food and company does make life sweeter :)

Keep up the great work!

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Angie@Angie's Recipes January 1, 2010 at 10:09 pm

The scallion pancakes rock! I too adore the handmade jiaozi.
Sophia, All the best for twenty-ten!

Angie

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Kerstin January 1, 2010 at 10:32 pm

You are beautiful! And what inspiring posts Sophia – you are wise beyond your years! Looks like you had quite an amazing feast too – Happy New Year!

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Tina January 2, 2010 at 4:14 am

Love the new site! I missed the move, but it looks great.

That noodle dish looks hilarious xD

I’m so happy for you that you got to spend New Year in New York! That is truly amazing! From all I’ve heard it’s a great city and I hope you have fun.

Happy New Year!

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Kailey January 2, 2010 at 7:05 am

your right – no body is perfect so I think reminding ourselves of that is a great way to get rid of some stress :)
scallion pancakes, shrimp & a cute bow in your hair makes a perfect get together!

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FoodFitnessFreshair January 2, 2010 at 9:33 am

Love your New Years Resolution. Being beautiful inside makes you shine on the outside. All of those qualities truly are meaningful and worthwhile. Best of luck.

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annie January 2, 2010 at 10:56 am

you are SOOOOO beautiful sophia! You are one of the most beautiful people I know!

I can eat pajean everyday if I could haha.

Is it creepy to think your brother is cute? HAHAHAHA
HAPPY NEW YEAR LOVE!!

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Bekah January 2, 2010 at 12:10 pm

Aahhh Sophia this post is beautiful. Everything about it.

Can I come over and have all sorts of asian food with you? Everything you eat is like REAL good food. And I have seen or tried none of it. Shame.

Happy New Year my dear! xoxo

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Kasha January 2, 2010 at 3:32 pm

What an awesome new location! Congrats! Happy New Year and thanks for being my friend!
http://www.grubandstuff.blogspot.com

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Tricia January 2, 2010 at 3:52 pm

mmmmmmmm…..I’m drooling over all the food.

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Jen January 2, 2010 at 4:24 pm

you are such a cutie!!! sorry i did not get to see you in NY this time, next time!! :) You have been an inspiration, thank you!

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Faith January 2, 2010 at 4:47 pm

Happy New Year, Sophia! Yay, I’m glad you found the ball of dough! (I love fun food traditions like that!)

That spread looks killer, especially those yummy scallion pancakes!

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AnnQ January 2, 2010 at 4:54 pm

Sophia – I hope you had a great New Years in NYC…truly my favorite city in the world! (good thing I’m only 40 minutes away from downtown Manhattan. Love. It. :-) )

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Neela Marijana January 2, 2010 at 10:06 pm

happy new year my beautiful sophia!! xoxo food comas are always good ;)

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One Healthy Apple January 3, 2010 at 12:13 am

Happy New Year! I love how smiley you are in this post! I can already see the beauty radiating!

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Maria January 3, 2010 at 5:44 pm

Haha, Sophia! I love the stuff you wrote about your brother!

Yaay for getting the ball of dough :)

I want to be a selfless person this year. One who is delighted to serve others!

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thenomadGourmand January 5, 2010 at 1:14 am

oh my god!! I m so cravin for dumplings, pancakes, steamed fish & pancakes now!!
Arghhh!
HUNGRY, but wearin a pair of too tight pants & can barely breath. LOL!

Aiyo, so cute la u! all tht pics! hehehe… u gonna hv a great year & well..if the dumpling confirmed it, whoa! No stoppin ya gal!

What is your personal image of yourself for the 2010? What kind of person do you dream to be?

personal image?
Sigh..i also wanted to be successful u knw. So far its not been wht i dreamed of for myself.
funny how u worte abt dreams.. I kinda gave up too…cos it didnt happen. and the disappoinement, fustrations.. sigh.. should I set anything for myself this year? cos i didnt.
I just told myself to take it easy, blog, bake, & well.. find happiness again.
Perhaps tht’s it?
The goal? – to be find happiness?

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Jolene (www.everydayfoodie.ca) January 6, 2010 at 5:58 pm

Why does Korean food always look SO darn good!!!?

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Tiptoe January 7, 2010 at 9:27 am

Just catching up on your blog now. Wow, that food looks so amazing! I love pajeon but like to make a seafood variety. Seeing this makes me miss homemade korean food!

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The Duo Dishes January 10, 2010 at 8:10 am

So much good food. This is what makes the holiday times fun–family, friends, food. Looks like you started off the New Year right. Let’s hope we all stick to our new beginnings and carry them out forever!

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