I can’t believe the year is almost over. 2010 is fast approaching! 2010! Doesn’t that just sound so…foreign and awkward to you? Like a distant future in a science fiction film…Whenever I say the word “2010” out loud, I can’t help imagining spaceships and little flying scooters jetting around.
A whole year has passed, and boy…has it been a whirlwind of a year! So many things have happened, and I’ve undergone so many personal changes in myself. Once again, I’m astounded by how effective and powerful God’s work is in my life. I’ve been meditating on the process of all the happenings within my life in this year of 2009, and I’ve got goose bumps. 2009 has been an incredible year. And I can’t wait for 2010!
I know that the year 2010 is really just a number. January 1, 2010 is just another day in the whole spectrum of time, but it bears great significance because we humans have designated it as a start of a new year, a new beginning. And I think that’s a good thing. I personally definitely need a set date to remind me to reflect back on the past year, and look forward to a new year with a refreshed mind and perspective. In order to organize my thoughts, I’ve decided to arrange them into three categories:
1) Thanksgiving: What am I thankful for this year 2009? Have I changed? In what way?
2) Dreams and goals: What are my expectations for the upcoming year 2010? What kind of person do I envision myself to me by the end of that year?
3) Prayer Topics, Renewals: What are the specific prayer topics I have for the year 2010? What are the specific things I will change and renew about myself?
And yeah, I’ll be using this blog to publish my thoughts into concrete words. Hopefully, the pressure that some hundreds of people are reading this will help keep me in track.
So in the next three posts, I’ll be writing on each category in detail. But I really encourage you guys to join me in this New Year’s Self-Reflection. It’d be nice to have a buddy. So who’s with me?
By the way, I’ve been having a really great time here. I guess the saying, “There is no place like Home” is kinda true. Of course, there are annoying parts where my parents nag at me to sleep early, or to dress properly, or to eat this and that. Of course, I’ve also had several people ask me questions like “So how much do you weigh now?” and “Did you gain at least 18 lbs?”…But I feel incredibly relaxed, comfortable, and…just…home.
The day before, I walked around my old high school’s campus…
And strangely, I got none of those bad memories I used to have. Sure, the memories I had in high school are mostly tainted by my eating disorder: the day my counselor called my parents and made me stand on the scale, the day my friends divided into two camps: Camp “Sophia is Anorexic” and Camp “Sophia is just Stressed Out”, the day I missed school and didn’t come back for 3 months…
But now…I feel peaceful. All those “bad” memories? They’re really not so horrible when viewed in the whole of things. They were just necessary episodes in my life to keep the story going. And the story has not ended yet. My story is still progressing, and until the end, I can’t clearly define any part of it as “bad”.
Besides, there have definitely been good times mixed in my high school past, too. In fact, I’ve been missing a few certain places like crazy for ages now. These places are really not “that great”, but they are just some of my favorite places ever because I have such fond memories of them! I was one of those students who could never sit still at home and study. I had to move around, and I could only study if I was amidst people bustling about, and preferably with unlimited amounts of drinks.
My favorite places? McDonald’s (free refills!), Starbucks (nice, cushy sofas), and Panera (again, free refills and wireless!). There are plenty of McDonald’s and Starbucks in Los Angeles, so obviously the place I wanted to visit most when I arrived in Virginia was Panera. Thankfully, my parents love Panera too, so they happily came along, together with me, my brother, and my cousin.
I ordered my favorite combo:
Turkey-Artichoke Panini, French Onion soup, whole grain baguette.
This panini can easily be re-created at home, but it’s just not the same to eat it in Panera!
Is it just me, or did the sandwich get smaller? This panini was definitely smaller than it was a year ago!
Well, at least I found comfort in the intense, beefy and oniony broth of the classic French Onion soup…
Another thing I really missed: good crusty bread. Mmm…
My parents, my brother and I all got pretty much the same thing, but Clara just got a bagel with cream cheese. She refused to eat a turkey sandwich because “turkeys are cute”. Eh? Clearly she has never seen a real turkey before.
Tomorrow is Clara’s 20th birthday, so we’ll be celebrating it the way we always celebrate birthdays: a walk, maybe lunch out, and no gifts. Poor Clara. She chose a bad place to celebrate her birthday! But she requested a banana cream pie, so I guess I’ll be doing some baking tomorrow as well!
Question of the day: Will you be doing some self-reflections for this upcoming New Years? When you think back to this 2009 year, what kind of emotions do you feel?